Happy Thanksgiving

November 25, 2010

Helloooo out thereeee!!!
I am writing this from the 'comfort' of a desk at WJLA -- working on Thanksgiving is leaving me slightly scrooge-ish... but I'm trying to stay positive!  We had a half hour show at 5:30am and the next show isn't until 9am.  So, I have a biiiig break today!  Good because I rarely get a 15 minute break, bad because I'm BORED and part of me would rather be working straight through today like normal.  A s m a l l part of me, that is.  I just wish I would've known so I could've brought a book or something!
And here I am, blogging because I'm bored so I want to say Happy Thanksgiving to all you guys out there!!  My question for the day: What are YOU thankful for?  :) It's an easy one, and I won't make you write a paper or anything either -- but let's just take this day to remember who and what we have that make life worth living.
I am thankful for the following things (in no particular order, and it's not a full list either):
*FAMILY -- and how amazing mine is <3
*Friends who I have remained close with -- Sarah, Kristy, Sean.. to name a few
*Matt who started as my Best Friend and grew into much more :)  I love you and I'm so glad God brought us together forever
*A roof over my head since I can remember
*A wonderful childhood: parents and siblings included
*A job, even if it is freelance
*Turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing and pumpkin pie
*God, who loves us no matter what and who has a plan for our lives

I have tons and tons to be thankful for -- too much to do it for just one day, so I'll give thanks everyday!  To my family: I love each of you and wish more than anything I could be at home gobbling up yummy food and laughing til my stomach hurts.  Miss everyone so much!

Philippians 4:6

November 23, 2010

Life is okay right now: waking up is hard to do, I run the risk of hitting deer about 100 times on my drive there, I'm sitting for about 8 hours doing Deko for different shows and trying to find my place in this world. 
I can't believe it's almost Thanksgiving.  I'm trying not to think too much about it because I am stuck working all week (for what feels like the 53980959th year in a row) at WJLA. 
Still reeling with stress daily about a job and how I can't help Matt out with the apartment bills. 
He and I are stuck in Maryland for Thanksgiving since I have to work and last night we got all the food necessary: small ham and turkeys (so cute!), mashed potatoes, stuffing and even ingredients for a Pumpkin Pie -- because what is Turkey Day without it??!  It'll be yummy, but certainly not like I would get at home, with my wonderful family.  Gosh, I miss them. That's really all that's going on in my life.  Sorry to my readers.. my blog posts are sooooo boring and depressing I know!  I'm just really trying to be thankful now (and always) for what I have and WHO I have in my life, and pray that life will get better.  I really have been blessed beyond measure.
Saw this verse yesterday and I love it:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer & petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." ~Philippians 4:6

Defeated.

November 15, 2010

I feel like throwing in the white towel on life.  To say "That's it, you win, I give up!"  I am dealing with nothing but discouragement for months now and nothing is getting easier.  I feel like a deflated balloon -- with no air, destination or purpose.  It's just........ there. 
Well, I'm just...... here in MD going through the motions of job searching, rejections and a job I really do not care for.  I'm letting people get to me: at work, on the road, everywhere and that's not how I normally am.  My headaches are back in full force and I keep having sharp pains in my chest area. 
Matt and I were in Lancaster this past weekend and we are finding ourselves REALLY missing it: no traffic, the calm/quiet, nice people and (yes) even the smell of cow crap.  I know this is the "Land of Opportunity" but sheesh, out of all the opportunities I've applied for -- shouldn't SOMEONE want me?!  I'm a hard worker and have been told I have a very impressive resume but I guess that doesn't go far.
I just don't feel like myself anymore.  Where's the person I was before??  No clue, but if you find her let me know.

I Am Tired!!!!!!!

November 10, 2010

Three days done with work -- and it's going pretty well.  I am training on Deko, which means learning to play animations, lowerthirds, fullscreens and things like that.  It's a whole crazy complicated computer system and with the touch of a button something plays.  Technology!  Needless to say, training is going a little slow.  A very nice girl Megan has been with me and I'm happy about that.  We get along well and are always together.  Too bad she's only filling in on mornings this week. :( 
I don't know about you but starting a new job --especially in a new place, not knowing anyone-- is making me quite stressed.  It takes me a couple months to get my groove and feel like my performance is good.  I'm only three days in and getting frustrated with myself for not learning Deko fast enough and making mistakes.  When I learn anything I always want to get it the first try and that never happens.  While I am making progress every day (slooowlyyy) I still get frustrated at myself, other people and situations.  I really need to cool it and just do my best. 
Everyone I've met is really nice, though it'll take me time to remember all their names, haha!  I'll be training the rest of this week, and some next week then it's all me.  Bring it!  I came across this quote today: "The key to life is accepting challenges. Once someone stops doing this, they're dead." ~Bette Davis
I need to keep this in mind!
Another thing worth mentioning why I'm tired:  I start work at 4:30am.  So, I'm up by 3am and gone by 3:45am.  It is SO nice because there's no traffic at that time, but going home is another story.  Waking up yesterday, I felt like I've been doing it for years.  LoL.  It's waay better than starting at 11:30pm like my old job, so I'll take it.  And I'll take a regular job.. while still searching for a good fulltime job, too.  Well, time to go read G.W.'s new book!!!  Tootles :)

I Won!!!!

November 3, 2010

I totally forgot to post this before, but I won a Vera Bradley Tote... from Twitter of all places!!  I 'tweet' everyday, several times a day and I came across a tweet from a woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer.  She was teaming up with VB to give away totes to winners of a drawing for retweeting her message with "Hope" attached to it.  (sorry for those who don't use Twitter, that all prob sounds like a foreign language)  So I retweeted with "Hope :)" and forgot about it.  A day or two later, I looked at my '@Mentions' on Twitter ( messages from those who reply to you) and saw that I was picked in the drawing-- and won a VB Twirly Birds Pink tote to support breast cancer!  I was SOO excited you really have no idea.  I never win ANYTHING.  Ever.  And that's no exaggeration.  So I sent my address and a week later (today) I received it in the mail!  I am so excited and thankful I won: it just brightens my mood.  I loove it and it's perfect for me to use on the go around DC and to and from work each day.  Thank you, Vera Bradley and Heidi.  :) xoxo

I Have A Job

After much worrying and contemplating, and deciding to take the job I talked about in my previous post I went in to WJLA yesterday.  After being half an hour late (thanks public transportation) I filled out MOUNDS of paperwork at HR then got my badge, took a tour of the studio and area.  So, I start next Monday bright and early -- at 4:30am.  Yikes!  But I am trying to stay positive about it, and remember this is happening for a reason.  I really hope I do a phenomenal job to go full time and make more money.  I hear everyone I'll be working with is really nice, too which is a plus!!
I don't really have any other life news -- everything else is pretty much the same. 
Anywho, now I must head to the bank and start packing for a loooong weekend at the Cabin!  Matt and I are leaving tonight!! :-D  Cannot wait to get away -- before I start my job next week.