Sleepless Night

August 26, 2010

Here it is, 11:50am and I just rolled out of bed.  Don't yell at me Mom and Dad!!! The thing is, I couldn't sleep at all last night.  I was sleeping soundly until about 2am when my eyes opened and didn't want to shut.  Matt was up and left at 6, and by that time I was into watching my 2nd hour of FOX5 Morning News.  Alittle after, I turned on Fox & Friends, watched over an hour of that then FINALLY fell asleep.  What is my problem?? 

All in all I got about 5 hours before and after being awake.  The only thing I can think of that could be the culprit is today: my first day at Express.  I haven't heard from them about my schedule then BAM! Matt and I are watching TV last night and I get the call.  "We have some openings on the schedule this week..." Enter Miss - Nice - Alissa - Who - Can - NEVER - Say - No.  Quite frankly I'd much rather start next week... actually I'd rather not work there at all!  I told the manager I can work tonight and Saturday (goodbye weekend).  Now, I'm finding myself wishing I didn't answer, politely decline or avoid it alltogether.  But that's not me.  I was so mad last night after the conversation and I think that's why I couldn't sleep.  I'm finding myself absolutely DREADING working in retail again, let alone starting tonight.  I feel that I don't have it in me to do that anymore, and I don't want to go to another job I don't enjoy doing.  Help!  There is light at the end of the tunnel.  Yesterday, as I was cleaning I got a call from the news director at FOX5 in DC.  Her voicemail said she wants me to come visit and thinks she has a position for me.  So, I go in Monday afternoon which cannot come soon enough.  Now I don't know what to do!  Do I quit Express in hopes of getting this job... or stick with it until I know for sure I can quit - thus leading Express on?  I did tell the Express manager this is a temporary thing until I find a job in my field.  I'm just not sure what to do!  I guess I could be patient and see how Monday's interview goes.  Let's hope I knock their socks off! :)

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