A Great New Year's Resolution

December 30, 2010

On one of the shows at work the other day, we had a woman come in who bakes and sends cookies for Troops overseas.  Though trying to do my job and listen to the segment at the same time was tough, I was really excited and happy to see someone doing that for the men and women who are away serving our country. 
Germaine Broussard is the founder of the TroopTreats charity and she is known as "The Mail Lady" at the post office since we is ALWAYS mailing packages.  She is a mom, wife, friend and just wants to help.  I have been thinking and finding ways I can help the troops: letters, thoughts (which don't seem so helpful), prayers... always feeling like I could do more. 
This charity is so great because Germaine accepts monetary donations, ingredients to make cookies, as well as toiletries -- things SO small, but necessities... things we take for granted on a daily basis.  If you'd like to make cards for the troops, or even send letters, Germaine will take those and mail them along with the goodies.  Another great thing is 100% of TroopTreats donations go toward mailing packages, and all donations are tax deductible. 
I have decided that I want to help this charity -- and let the troops know I care, and appreciate what they're doing as well as all they are sacraficing.  It really is more than we can know.  The Thank You's and smiles of the recipients will make it all worthwhile.  It's hard to believe that some troops don't EVER receive anything from family or friends.  How sad.  After looking over the website, I'm definitely going to contribute.  I love baking and love the though of baking for such a good cause... and get toiletries, even write letters and cards.  I want to do it all!  Maybe not at once, but gradually.  I'm thinking about starting this once a month.  I want to help and it is so easy!
Here is the website:  http://www.trooptreats.com/
You can read more about TroopTreats, find out how to contribute, where to mail things and even read thank you's from those who have received packages.  I hope you'll check it out and decide to help Germaine as well as our Troops, too.  Why not start off 2011 in a very positive way??  It can only help :)

Joy To The World

December 28, 2010

In the blink of an eye -- Christmas is over.  It was such a great time at home, I can't even explain.  Matt and I left Wednesday night for Lancaster.  We saw friends and had a birthday dinner with his family, where we exchanged gifts.  I got to WATCH the Steelers game, made cookies with his mom and just enjoyed being with people and away from Maryland.
Christmas eve, after church, Matt and I left for New Wilmington -- drove through the night to my parent's house and got there FINALLY around 1:30am.  The drive was pretty smooth (when I was awake) for being the turnpike.  There were hardly any cars around which was nice!! 
Christmas morning, my sister and brother in-law came over and we all opened gifts, ate breakfast and just relaxed until all my family came over later.  It was a blast!!  We ate, laughed, exchanged more gifts, ate some more and drank.  It was such a great time.  I love my family soo much and we always have the most fun time!!
I'm so grateful I got to be home for Christmas!  I would've liked to stay longer, but it was nice to get to be at both families for the holiday. 

Just two more days of work, then it's home again for NYE with my Love!  Cannot wait.
How was your Christmas??

Dinner for Four

December 11, 2010

It's the weekend!  After spending a couple hours at the MD DMV (I don't want to talk about it) we are relaxing for a bit before we go out!  I know, it sounds weird because we never do anything!  Surprise!  We are going to Virginia to have dinner with Gary, Matt's boss, and his wife.  I'm pretty excited to get out and have a fun time with people.  Gary is a nice guy with a sense of humor like Matt's -- they're practically BFFs. ;)  I've met him a few times before after visiting HUD and freelancing there as well.  I'm excited to meet his wife as well!!  I hear she's really nice and LOVES scrapbooking, just like me!  She even has a Cricut.  (like the animal.  Google it... it's the best thing ever!) 
It's sure to be a fun night!  They're making dinner, though we're not sure what it is.  But I like surprises!  And food.  Well, time to go.  I have to make a spice cake to bring, get ready then we're off!  :)  Have a good Saturday everyone!
PS ~ 14 days until Christmas!!!!

'Tis the Season

December 8, 2010

Ahhh, December!  (wow it's been a while since I blogged!)  last weekend Matt and I decorated for Christmas!  We spent the weekend at his parents, and brought my tree back.  I was alittle too excited so we decorated it Sunday evening before I had to get to bed. 
It was so much fun!  I made a Christmas playlist on Grooveshark and we piled bulbs and ornaments on the tree (see the awesome picture to the left)-- along with garland, candles and other fun stuff around the apartment.  I love this time of the year.  It almost brought me back to my childhood: all 6 of us going to the tree farm to pick out the perfect tree, cutting it down, decorating it and just being a family. 
After we were finished, we turned on the TV and what movie was on?  Elf!  I just loooove that movie!  It is hilarious and really gets one in the Christmas spirit.  Now I just need some egg nog!
Matt and I are still working out holiday plans with the two families but hopefully we can get to both places.  I really miss my family and want to be home for a bit... I'm homesick. 
I have a feeling it'll be a good Christmas, and New Year's though.  :) 
Now I just gotta get through two more weeks of work.....

Happy Thanksgiving

November 25, 2010

Helloooo out thereeee!!!
I am writing this from the 'comfort' of a desk at WJLA -- working on Thanksgiving is leaving me slightly scrooge-ish... but I'm trying to stay positive!  We had a half hour show at 5:30am and the next show isn't until 9am.  So, I have a biiiig break today!  Good because I rarely get a 15 minute break, bad because I'm BORED and part of me would rather be working straight through today like normal.  A s m a l l part of me, that is.  I just wish I would've known so I could've brought a book or something!
And here I am, blogging because I'm bored so I want to say Happy Thanksgiving to all you guys out there!!  My question for the day: What are YOU thankful for?  :) It's an easy one, and I won't make you write a paper or anything either -- but let's just take this day to remember who and what we have that make life worth living.
I am thankful for the following things (in no particular order, and it's not a full list either):
*FAMILY -- and how amazing mine is <3
*Friends who I have remained close with -- Sarah, Kristy, Sean.. to name a few
*Matt who started as my Best Friend and grew into much more :)  I love you and I'm so glad God brought us together forever
*A roof over my head since I can remember
*A wonderful childhood: parents and siblings included
*A job, even if it is freelance
*Turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing and pumpkin pie
*God, who loves us no matter what and who has a plan for our lives

I have tons and tons to be thankful for -- too much to do it for just one day, so I'll give thanks everyday!  To my family: I love each of you and wish more than anything I could be at home gobbling up yummy food and laughing til my stomach hurts.  Miss everyone so much!

Philippians 4:6

November 23, 2010

Life is okay right now: waking up is hard to do, I run the risk of hitting deer about 100 times on my drive there, I'm sitting for about 8 hours doing Deko for different shows and trying to find my place in this world. 
I can't believe it's almost Thanksgiving.  I'm trying not to think too much about it because I am stuck working all week (for what feels like the 53980959th year in a row) at WJLA. 
Still reeling with stress daily about a job and how I can't help Matt out with the apartment bills. 
He and I are stuck in Maryland for Thanksgiving since I have to work and last night we got all the food necessary: small ham and turkeys (so cute!), mashed potatoes, stuffing and even ingredients for a Pumpkin Pie -- because what is Turkey Day without it??!  It'll be yummy, but certainly not like I would get at home, with my wonderful family.  Gosh, I miss them. That's really all that's going on in my life.  Sorry to my readers.. my blog posts are sooooo boring and depressing I know!  I'm just really trying to be thankful now (and always) for what I have and WHO I have in my life, and pray that life will get better.  I really have been blessed beyond measure.
Saw this verse yesterday and I love it:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer & petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." ~Philippians 4:6


November 15, 2010

I feel like throwing in the white towel on life.  To say "That's it, you win, I give up!"  I am dealing with nothing but discouragement for months now and nothing is getting easier.  I feel like a deflated balloon -- with no air, destination or purpose.  It's just........ there. 
Well, I'm just...... here in MD going through the motions of job searching, rejections and a job I really do not care for.  I'm letting people get to me: at work, on the road, everywhere and that's not how I normally am.  My headaches are back in full force and I keep having sharp pains in my chest area. 
Matt and I were in Lancaster this past weekend and we are finding ourselves REALLY missing it: no traffic, the calm/quiet, nice people and (yes) even the smell of cow crap.  I know this is the "Land of Opportunity" but sheesh, out of all the opportunities I've applied for -- shouldn't SOMEONE want me?!  I'm a hard worker and have been told I have a very impressive resume but I guess that doesn't go far.
I just don't feel like myself anymore.  Where's the person I was before??  No clue, but if you find her let me know.

I Am Tired!!!!!!!

November 10, 2010

Three days done with work -- and it's going pretty well.  I am training on Deko, which means learning to play animations, lowerthirds, fullscreens and things like that.  It's a whole crazy complicated computer system and with the touch of a button something plays.  Technology!  Needless to say, training is going a little slow.  A very nice girl Megan has been with me and I'm happy about that.  We get along well and are always together.  Too bad she's only filling in on mornings this week. :( 
I don't know about you but starting a new job --especially in a new place, not knowing anyone-- is making me quite stressed.  It takes me a couple months to get my groove and feel like my performance is good.  I'm only three days in and getting frustrated with myself for not learning Deko fast enough and making mistakes.  When I learn anything I always want to get it the first try and that never happens.  While I am making progress every day (slooowlyyy) I still get frustrated at myself, other people and situations.  I really need to cool it and just do my best. 
Everyone I've met is really nice, though it'll take me time to remember all their names, haha!  I'll be training the rest of this week, and some next week then it's all me.  Bring it!  I came across this quote today: "The key to life is accepting challenges. Once someone stops doing this, they're dead." ~Bette Davis
I need to keep this in mind!
Another thing worth mentioning why I'm tired:  I start work at 4:30am.  So, I'm up by 3am and gone by 3:45am.  It is SO nice because there's no traffic at that time, but going home is another story.  Waking up yesterday, I felt like I've been doing it for years.  LoL.  It's waay better than starting at 11:30pm like my old job, so I'll take it.  And I'll take a regular job.. while still searching for a good fulltime job, too.  Well, time to go read G.W.'s new book!!!  Tootles :)

I Won!!!!

November 3, 2010

I totally forgot to post this before, but I won a Vera Bradley Tote... from Twitter of all places!!  I 'tweet' everyday, several times a day and I came across a tweet from a woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer.  She was teaming up with VB to give away totes to winners of a drawing for retweeting her message with "Hope" attached to it.  (sorry for those who don't use Twitter, that all prob sounds like a foreign language)  So I retweeted with "Hope :)" and forgot about it.  A day or two later, I looked at my '@Mentions' on Twitter ( messages from those who reply to you) and saw that I was picked in the drawing-- and won a VB Twirly Birds Pink tote to support breast cancer!  I was SOO excited you really have no idea.  I never win ANYTHING.  Ever.  And that's no exaggeration.  So I sent my address and a week later (today) I received it in the mail!  I am so excited and thankful I won: it just brightens my mood.  I loove it and it's perfect for me to use on the go around DC and to and from work each day.  Thank you, Vera Bradley and Heidi.  :) xoxo

I Have A Job

After much worrying and contemplating, and deciding to take the job I talked about in my previous post I went in to WJLA yesterday.  After being half an hour late (thanks public transportation) I filled out MOUNDS of paperwork at HR then got my badge, took a tour of the studio and area.  So, I start next Monday bright and early -- at 4:30am.  Yikes!  But I am trying to stay positive about it, and remember this is happening for a reason.  I really hope I do a phenomenal job to go full time and make more money.  I hear everyone I'll be working with is really nice, too which is a plus!!
I don't really have any other life news -- everything else is pretty much the same. 
Anywho, now I must head to the bank and start packing for a loooong weekend at the Cabin!  Matt and I are leaving tonight!! :-D  Cannot wait to get away -- before I start my job next week.

Praying I Made The Right Decision

October 28, 2010

So it's Thursday and a lot has happened in two days.  Yesterday, I got to freelance at HUD so I was up early with Matt.  Turns out, I didn't have much to do since freelancers were overbooked.  So I got paid to wrap cable and work lights for 2 interviews.  I got to watch a taping with the Secretary of HUD, who was a very nice man.  He walked in and said hi to me then got right to work.  He was also a very good speaker -- as one has to be in that position.  It was a very long day but I had fun!
Today, I'm kind of happy to report I have a job.  By kind of, I mean that I'm not sure if I should do it... yet I need a job.  It's still a freelancing position which come tax time will have me paying waaay more -- with money I don't have.  I won't get into many details but the job is only $8/hour, 4-5 days/week and some weekends from 4am-12:30pm.  Also, since it's so early I have to drive there because public transportation doesn't run so early... and parking is $65/month.  There are a lot of cons and not very many pros... except the fact that it could help me get a full time job there.  While I won't be making and saving very much money, I'm doing it to have more of a regular job, get experience and (more importantly) "my foot in the door" -- as they say in the TV biz. 
Those I've talked to say I'm definitely over-qualified to do this job, but what's a step back if it helps me get 20 steps ahead with a full-time job?  Of course, who knows how long that'll take, or if it ever happens.  I interviewed for two open positions -- so there could be a good chance right now to move up.  I'm just praying I made the right decision and that it lands me a full time job in the near future.  While I have a job, there's still a lot of IF's and unknowns which make me nervous.  In the meantime - I will continue job searching to keep my options open!  Pray for me!

No Matter What

October 26, 2010

It's one of those weeks again... where I'm finding myself in a zombie-like state.  Just going through the motions of job searching and not getting any solid leads.  Freelancing is fun and it's better than making NO money at all, but it just can't support me for an extended amount of time.  Matt is also having money problems, and the fact that I can't pay any bills to help is eating me alive. 
My Aunt sent me an email last week with the lyrics to a new song she really likes.  I've watched the youtube video and it's saved in my favorites.  It's called "No Matter What" and it is about heartache we experience and no matter what I'm going to put my trust and hope in the Lord.  I'm desperately trying to do that and remember no matter what: this can't last forever, it's happening for a reason, life could be a lot worse, and God doesn't give us anything we can't handle... with Him along the journey.
Check out the video, and read each word carefully.  I hope you enjoy it, and thanks Aunt Meghan for sending it to me!

Kerrie Roberts ~ "No Matter What"

A Very Random Friday

October 22, 2010

I am on the clouds tonight... because I had such a great day!!  Let me tell you why......
It all started when I woke up at 7am tooo nervous/anxious for a job interview.  I was up early enough to get ready without rushing, put my outfit together the night before.. prayed before I left at 8:30am. 
I took the bus to the Silver Spring metro stop and after a text (or several) to Matt making sure I was going the right way (can't be too sure!) I was off to Metro Station to transfer lines.  It really is simple getting to places using the Metro.. it's a very easy system and I had no problems!  I transferred to the Orange line.. waiting for my stop when a nice man talked to me.  We talked about getting off at the wrong stop, which neither of us wanted to do.  I was happy to know there are nice people still out there, haha.
So once I leave the metro, I see my destination: ABC7 in Virginia.  Huge 27-story building with a big news ticker whom the assistant news director said I'd have NO trouble finding.  (I felt like saying.. you don't know how I am with directions.. but trusted her)  I look at the clock: 10am.  I'm an HOUR early to my interview.. which is better than an hour late.  So I sat at a nearby table looking over my notes and praying more.
Upon waiting in the lobby, I ran into David Archuleta (from American Idol!) and the President of the FCC - which was pretty neat.  Then during my interview, Bill Nye the Science Guy walked by!  I used to watch his show everyday!  After my interview ended at 2 (!) I met Matt and HUD while he finished up work and we made our way home together. :)
It was so cool to see the area, celebs and not the apartment walls.  Oh yeah- and my interview went pretty well I think.  Time will tell -- and more prayers in the meantime!  I so hope it works out, the station and area was awesome and I would love working there.  I also talked about Freelancing for them as well, and it looks promising.  Today ended up being random, yet planned.  I met nice people, had a job interview and everything just made me smile.  I haven't felt this in a while, and I hope it continues. 
In the meantime: another freelancing gig tomorrow at 1... a Gloria Gaither concert at the Ritz Carlton!  Fancy schmancy! :)  Tootles!

You'll Want to Dance to This

October 21, 2010

I am a HUGE fan of Will Smith and recently saw the whole family on Oprah.  The kids are adorable.. and they just have it all together, I love it!!  Will and Jada's daughter, Willow, has begun a singing career & I think she's so cool!  She just debuted her first song and video "Whip My Hair" and it makes me want to dance.  It's so funky, fresh and fun-- I love it!  Enjoy :)

Willow Smith- "Whip My Hair"


October 20, 2010

So, I figured I'd blog today about where I sit in my current job search.  I realized I keep up with a lot of websites that post jobs and write down every job I apply to.  As a way to help others who are unemployed- and something I'll be able to read in the (hopefully near) future & remember this rough time.... while I'm at work ;) 

Websites I use daily:

Total number of jobs applied to: 41
Total number of rejection replies: 9

I was never very good at math, but my calculations tell me I have 32 more chances to hear some good news.  The question is: How many of those 32 will never get back to me?....

Will There Ever Be....

October 19, 2010

...a time in my life that I don't worry?! 
Sorry I haven't blogged for quite awhile.  Matt and I have been busy going out of town to Lancaster and to visit my family (which was great).  That, in addition to not having much to say and feeling down, has made me stay away from blogging. 
Yep- another frustrating blog about my life.  Honestly, it's not that wonderful right now.  At least not in the job aspect.  In the family, friends and relationship parts I am BEYOND blessed for sure.  But I just can't stop worrying about getting a job, how will I pay next month's bills, where will I be a month from now and SO much more.  I worry about so many things: stupid/petty things, legit things.. but what good does it do?  None!  As much as I know that, I worry anyway because I simply cannot help it.  Besides, how could I NOT worry about being unemployed???  I'm literally sick with worry and sometimes it just overwhelmes me so much that I cry.  Whether by myself or during a nice conversation with Matt. 
I have a few jobs that I've gotten calls or email from... but I'm forced to sit back and wait for these people to get back to me.  And up to now- no one has, and when I do hear back it's 'We found someone else better suited.'  It's wearing me down and I'm not sure how much more I can take.  Sure, I am freelancing for Matt & his company in DC and I LOVE it.  It makes me love the industry I'm in more, and I'm blessed to be doing that at least, but it's not steady and I don't see a paycheck for a month after I work.  I have yet to see a paycheck.  It's just all getting very hard. 
Again, this all begs the question: Will there ever be a time in my life where I don't worry (as much) about a job or money, or about silly things?  I certainly don't think I'll be so rich I won't need to worry at all, and I'm okay with that.  I'm used to living frugally.  But- will I ever get to a much more secure point?  Hopefully, I'll get some good news on the job front soon... to start toward that life.

Proverbs 7~day 7

October 7, 2010

Another chapter of adultery: this time aimed at the adultress.
The apple of your eye.
^ an Old English expression for the eye's center, or pupil.  The whole body is tuned to protect that pupil from harm: eyelids reflexively snap shut at the slightest hint of danger; tear ducts bathe your eye with a cleansing liquid if any irritant enters; nerve endings scream "danger" at the slightest pain or pressure.  Proverbs urges us to take as much care of its teachings as you do of your eye.

Proverbs 6~day 6

This chapter shows the danger in debt.  "My son, if you have put up security for your neighbor, if you have struck hands in pledge for another, if you have been trapped by what you said, ensnared by the words of your mouth, then do this, my son, to free yourself, since you have fallen into your neighbor's hands: Go and humble yourself; press your plea with your neighbor!" (v. 1-3)
The little box in my Bible explains this chapter by saying Proverbs supports generosity, but not openended charity in which the amount you must give and the timing are determined by circumstances beyond your control.  Too often it leads to disaster. 
I had never thought about this before but it goes to show you have to be careful in everday life.  I'm a trusting person, which could be a bad thing.  We all need to just be cautious in generosity and helping people.

Proverbs 5~day 5

Warning against adultery:  "My son, pay attention to my wisdom, listen well to my words of insight, that you may maintain discretion and your lips may preserve knowledge.  For the lips of an adulteress drip honey, and her speech is smoother than oil; but in the end she is bitter as gall, sharp as a double-edged sword.  Her feet go down to death; her steps lead straight to the grave.  She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths are crooked, but she knows it not." (v. 1-6) 
I think those verses speak for what the fifth chapter is about.  How evil and no good adultery is in one's life.  I've seen so many times the lives of people thrown upside down due to this act.  We see it everywhere: celebrities being cheated on, countless politicians, maybe you or someone you personally know has gone through it.  I can sit here and say that I don't know what it's like to go through such heartbreak, but I have seen it happen to the lives of celebs and many others in the public eye.  My heart broke for Sandra Bullock when it came out her scum of a husband cheated, and for Elizabeth Edwards when she found out her husband did the same and even fathered a child.  (I watched the Oprah episode about Elizabeth's story and I couldn't stop crying) 
My heart goes out to those who've gone through it -- and for those who don't know about it.  I just cannot believe that anyone could do such a horrible thing to their loved one.  I've thought a lot about what I'd do.  And to this day, I don't know.  I am all about forgiveness, and God says we should forgive, but at the same time I wouldn't be able to trust that person again.  It's a shame we all see stories, or experience it at all. 
"For a man's ways are in full view of the Lord, and He examines all his paths.  The evil deeds of a wicked man ensnare him; the cords of his sin hold him fast.  He will die for lack of discipline, led astray by his own great folly." (v. 21-23)

Proverbs 4~day 4

October 4, 2010

In chapter 4, wisdom is supreme.  The words reiterate the previous chapters by helping us remember that God is in control and is our teacher.  "I give you sound learning, so do not forsake my teaching." (v. 2)  In this chapter, this father tries to help his son develop a love for the best things in life- just as his father did for him.  This love for the best- and most of all for wisdom- begins with listening to your father's advice.  "My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words.  Do not let them out of your sign, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body." (v. 20-22) 
Since it's now further in the book of Proverbs- and every chapter reflects the importance of keeping away from evil and on the right path- it makes me think that this is a very important matter not to be taken lightly.  It is written and told many different times so we understand and, perhaps more importantly, never forget.  In this world, there is so much evil: actions, words, people.. you name it.  And it is easy for one to stray off the perfect path that God has for us.  We need to stay strong in the Lord, remember his teachings and know He is in control.  He knows what is best (and not so good) for us.  Whether it be a friend, situation or job.

Proverbs 3~day 3

This chapter has one of my favorite verses in it:  "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight." (v. 5,6)  I think these two verses really sum up this chapter: the benefits of wisdom and walking down the right path.  There is a whole list of more things to do and not do: "fear the Lord and shun evil" (v.7), 'honor the Lord with your wealth' (v.9) 'do not withhold good from those who deserve it, when it is in your power to act' (v. 27)
All these verses and more are so great to read over.  It could be a lot to take in and remember, but that is why we keep reading.  So we remember His words and put them to use in our own lives.  The first verse I mentioned I really needed to be reminded of.  Such simple words- yet they're so powerful and filled with so much promise.  If we simply trust in Him with our whole heart, realize He is 100% in control and in all our ways acknowledge Him, He will lead us down the most amazing path in life! 
In a matter of a few hours this morning after I work up, I got three job rejection e-mails from places I have (and have not) interviewed at.  I am getting incredibly discouraged and each e-mail I get knocks me down another notch into sadness and despair.  I need to keep in mind everyday- especially at this point in my life- that God is in control.  He knows what and where I'll be and what's best for me.  There must be some very good reasons I haven't gotten a job yet (I hope!) but I do know, financially, it can't last much longer.  I will do my best to remember those verses and keep praying I find a job here that I love.  God will provide!

Proverbs 2~day 2

The second chapter of Proverbs gives us reasons as to the moral benefits of wisdom.  "If we accept his words, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God" (v. 5)  Just by knowing, accepting and living by His wisdom, we know what is good and right... and stay away from what is evil and will hurt us.  "For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul.  Discretion will protect you, and understand will guard you." (v. 10,11)  The chapter goes on to explain wisdom and knowledge will save us from the ways of wicked men, those whose paths are crooked, adulteress and all the others that are on a wayward path.  I'm sure we can all think of someone who is on a wayward path.  We must avoid those people and paths, so we can "walk in the ways of good men and keep to the paths of the righteous." (v.20)
Thinking about the negative people in our lives, not many come to mind in mine.  Now, rewind back to about 3+ years ago when I was in college and MANY were on my list.  However, then I focused on my school work and more importantly when it was time to have fun.  That fun only lasted a short time and some people I began to be around were making things worse.  Looking back, I was blinded and believed people were my friends when they were poison to me, my decisions and life.  Not too long after I graduated, I did some 'weeding' -- as I like to call it.  Just like in a real garden, you weed to get the negative/ugly plants out of the area so the flowers can bloom to their full beautiful potential... I had to do 'weeding' of my own and let go of those who were nothing but a negative influence on me and the decisions I made each day.  I believe sometimes in life, you need to do that.  I can honestly say I haven't been happier and lived a better life since I made that decision.

Proverbs 1~day 1

October 1, 2010

I need some stability in my life.  Something that I can do daily to make myself feel calm, understand God more and maybe figure out His direction for my life.  I have really been stressing over my unemployment, and getting rejection emails from jobs I applied to doesn't help.
But, I received an event invitation last night on Facebook, from my Aunt and I believe it was perfect timing.  It's a month-long Bible adventure: to read the book of Proverbs all through October.  It couldn't be more perfect: 31 days in the month, 31 chapters in the book, 31 days for me to really open my heart and give everything to Him.  Last night before bed, after deciding I'm doing this challenge, I wondered how I can keep record of each day and what the words teach me.  After thinking of writing in my dusty journal, I thought there has to be a better way.  Then I realized, Duh!, you have a blog!  So I'm going to write my thoughts down about each chapter: verses that stand out to me, lessons I learn, things to remember and pass on to those who read this.  I really hope you'll continue to follow my blog.  So, here it is....

Day 1: Proverbs Chapter 1
I love how right away in verse 1 is the purpose of why Proverbs was written: "for the wise to listen and add to their learning, the discerning get guidance" (v. 5) but also "for attaining wisdom and discipline for understanding words of insight" (v.2).  Right away, I realize I need to do this!!  I need wisdom and discipline in my life. 
The chapter goes on to warn against sinners enticing us, swallowing us alive.  "My son, do not go along with them, do not set foot on their paths; for their feet rush into sin, they are swift to shed blood" (v. 15-16)  This is powerful and something we all need to be reminded of.  Whether sinners entice us to say words, rumors or to take action in hurting another human being.. we need to stand up for what we believe in and who we are.  We are children of God - who will never forsake nor leave us!  Something I forget all too often.  He is with us where ever we go, whatever we do. 
Verse 20 begins a warning against rejecting wisdom: "Wisdom calls aloud in the street, she raises her voice in the public squares... How long will you simple ones love your simple ways? (v. 20, 22)  And a warning to those to reject Him: "I in turn will laugh at your disaster; I will mock when calamity overtakes you -- when calamity overtakes you like a storm, when disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind, when distress and trouble overwhelm you." (v. 26-27)  God says He will not answer when called upon since those who chose to not accept his advice turned their backs - "they will eat the fruit of their ways" (v. 31) 
We all need to revel in the wisdom and wrath of God - for both are powerful.  I'm thinking a lot about my life now and I see that I need this more than ever.  To go through this powerful book and listen to the teachings and lessons.  I've been feeling a lot of distress and trouble with not being able to get a job.  Daily. 
"But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm" (v. 33)  I'm listening, God, and I can't wait to hear what you have to say this month!

Nothing New Here..

September 28, 2010

Have no fear, I am here!!  I haven't forgotten to blog.. but things have been crazy here & in a weird way not much has been going on ( I don't get it either) so I've been at a loss for words.  Here's what's been going on since I last wrote:

This past weekend Matt and I went to Atlantic City to meet some of my friends I interned with in NYC.  It was my first time there, and I loved it!  I was kinda nervous gambling and wasn't sure how it was going to go.  I'm a cheap person who doesn't have much money, so I could never understand gambling.  I only played slots twice when we were there.  The first time I lost $20 and the second I made $11.  But after that, I was gambled out.  I watched Matt and my friends play Blackjack for a while trying to understand it lol.  Matt won nearly $1,000!  I just couldn't believe you just trade in chips and get that much cash back, haha! 
We walked on the boardwalk to different casinos all lit up at night and had a great time.  Saturday night we had dinner at PF Changs (also my first time) and it was delicious.  We didn't get to bed until almost 4am Sunday!  Then we all woke up to check out of the hotel at 11am and went back to the casinos.  After that, we split up and Matt and I went into the Pier Shops by Caesars.  There is SO much there!  Four levels of shops from AX to Gucci, Tiffany's, Apple.. you name it!  I was in awe!  Matt and I stumbled upon happy hour at Phillip's so we sat at the bar and had some food and drinks.  It was fun!  Then we had to meet our friends at the car since they were leaving.  We decided to leave too.. we were tired, gambled out and had to get back in time for Matt to go to bed.  It was such a fun weekend and I learned a lot!  I've been playing Blackjack online (for free) to practice for our next AC trip :)  Matt and I definitely want to go back.

Now for the job update:

Still no news from any station I interviewed at.  I keep getting stupid emails from Insurance companies that saw my resume online and would love to hire me, blah blah blah.  I got an email from a TV station in Salisbury MD for an interview -- which is 2.5 hours away-- so not quiiite sure what to do there.  Tonight, I'm freelancing at the Kennedy Center again, so it'll be a late night!  I will have to miss both Glee and One Tree Hill which I am SOOOO bummed about, but I'll just have to watch them online.  That's about it in a nutshell.... gotta go get ready to leave for work.  Tootles!

First Day Of Fall

September 23, 2010

After feeling a little blue, what better way to cheer up and celebrate than fall decorating!!!  I had some window clings and odds and ends of fall things that I put out... then I got the brilliant idea to head to the Dollar store and get more decor!  I recently saw a segment on television about decorating for very cheap via the dollar store, so I tried it out. 
I got SO many things for $20.00!  I got some fake fall flowers, little pumpkins, glass & river stones, candles, glass plates, a cute little scarecrow, a happy halloween wall hanging and a christmas decor (couldn't help it, it was cute!)  So I laid it all out on the living room floor and made a centerpiece for the coffee table, kitchen table, bathroom and more.  It was so much fun!!  I have so many vases and all kinds of glass containers that once held candles (great idea to keep those! just put in the freezer to get the rest of the old candle out.. falls out so easy!)  I made some fun decor pieces with those, too.  I had a blast putting together fall decorations and finding a home for them!  I highly recommend checking out your local dollar store. (I sound like a commercial lol)  Wait til Matt comes home and sees the apartment, hehe.  I cannot wait to decorate for Halloween... and Christmas.... New Year's... Valentine's Day.... St. Patty's Day..President's Day........My Birthday................

6 Months Ago Today..

September 20, 2010

Today is September 20th -- and it is also Matt and I's 6 month anniversary!!!  :)  It really feels like it's been longer because we've known eachother much a while and became friends first.  I know this may be cheesy to put on my blog, I just want to say Happy 6 months, Hunni!!  I truly am the luckiest girl alive to have my best friend and boyfriend in my life.  A lot has changed: from new and old jobs to living in a new state!  I'm thrilled to be living with you... and cannot wait for our future!  I love you! xoxo

Sittin' on the Dock of the Bay.....

Hello Monday -- goodbye another good weekend.  Matt and I left this side of Maryland Friday and went to Chesapeake Bay with his childhood friend, Jenna, her husband Chad, parents and other family.  Nine of us total!  Jenna's parents have a Bay house they go to every weekend and it's beautiful!!  There's a whole other room above the garage, too. 

We all got there later Friday night, so we just chatted and played with the dogs ( 5 of them!) and went to bed.  Saturday, we got up and went into Chestertown -- the area closest to the house.  It's a beautiful historic town in Maryland, that is nothing like where Matt and I live.  Brick sidewalks, cute little local shops & a Dunkin' Donuts and nice people everywhere.  Every Saturday they have vendors selling everything hand-made from soaps and furniture to free pets and vegetables.  It was really neat!  We also parused the little shops on the street... and stopped into a consignment shop!  Jenna and Chad just got a lab puppy and they brought her to town -- we were getting stopped by SO many people cooing about how cute she is.  And this dog is adorable!!!  Her name is Maci and she is so much fun to play with and just watch.

After lunch on Saturday Matt and I went crabbing!  It was my first time and it was so cool!  I had a blast riding on the dingy back and forth to each pot, bringing it up from the water and seeing if there was anything in it!  We even got some catfish!  We ended up getting about 6 crabs, but let them go because it wasn't enough to steam and eat.  That night, we went out to a local restaurant for a monster dinner of crabs -- I had my chicken wings ( I like to catch, not eat crabs). 

Sunday, Matt was up at 5:15am for crabbing and I got up at 8 to join him!  We were out on the water again, catching crabs aka dinner.  After over 7 hours of it, and me relaxing on the dock for a bit, we got 19ish crabs!!!  (We lost count!)  At one point there were two crabs in the same pot we pulled up.  They looove those chicken necks!  So, Matt made chicken and steak kibobs and steamed about 10 crabs (the other 9 or so got lucky and were thrown back!).  Everyone said they were good!!

It was a great weekend filled with boating, sun, crabs, water and relaxation.  I might be alittle red, but at least I'm not burned too bad!! haha  I'd post pictures, but I'm not sure if I can get them on my computer.... since my camera went for a swim in the Bay -- and sank to the bottom!  Chad was able to get it out of the water, but I'm thinking I will have to get a new camera sooner rather than later......

OTH Is Back In My Life

September 14, 2010

It's Tuesday and that means one thing: THE SEASON 8 PREMIERE OF ONE TREE HILL!!!  Ok, sorry for screaming there but I am sooo excited about it.  I have been watching the show since the first episode of season 1.  I've watched it in college dorms and apartments with my friends, online when I had to miss it and I am close to having all the seasons on DVD... I just need Season 7 which recently came out.  (I should've gotten it on the day it came to DVD -- but I always feel guilty about buying stuff like that.)  Anyway, I absolutely cannot wait for the new season.  In the past the show was almost canceled-- and the fans (yours truly included) rallied to keep the show going.  About two weeks ago, Matt and I were watching a show on the CW and what happened to be next?? A rerun of the Season 7 Finale (which I didn't know at the time).  So, I HAD to watch it (even though I wasn't able to watch any of the shows that season because of my work schedule) and I was able to follow it for the most part.  It was a cliffhanger of an ending -- and I know this first episode and whole season will be just as good.  From the very first episode I fell in love with the characters (Chad Michael Murray, you are HOT) and related to their daily struggles, friendships that came and went as well as all the happy times.  I've laughed, sang and bawled my eyes out.  One of the other things I love about the show is the music.  Artist songs are played during every show who are not well known (yet) and at the end they tell you what songs were used.  I think that's a great way to get new music out there for people to hear and download.

I am counting down the hours and minutes until tonight and you can bet I'll be blogging and Tweeting about it!  But only after the show because I give it all my attention.  :)  Yes I'm a dork, but this is the one show I've stuck with since it began and it just keeps getting better. 

Only 7 hours and 55 minutes to go!!!! :D

A Day At The Zoo

September 12, 2010

Yesteryday (Saturday) Matt and I decided to hop on the Metro and take a trip to the Washington D.C. National Zoological Park.  And it was SO fun!  I have been there before a few summers back with my family... but I loved going back because I love animals especially Pandas!!  I just think they are so cute with their white and black markings and how there heads are white with black around the eyes (like this cutie pie on the left).  The Zoo is pretty big, but we wasted no time looking at all the animals.  We didn't get to see some because they wern't able to be found.. it was really hot so maybe they were hiding in the bushes somewhere.  The seals and sea lions exhibit was closed due to construction, too.  I guess they're building a bigger/better exhibit to be completed in 2012 -- that's what the sign told me anyway.  I did see them the summer I was there so I guess I can deal with not seeing them this time.  It took us a bit to find the Pandas, tigers and others.. but well worth it! 

All the animals were laying outside on their rock or in the grass sleeping peacefully as everyone 'aww'ed over them.  It's just so neat to see animals like that pretty close!!  We saw a bear really close up... when he walked infront of us to the glass in his exhibit.  He was cute and had a 'mohawk' on his back.  We also saw the Gorillas and Orang utans.. one of which was painting for a Zoo worker.  He was saying something to the animal and it would paint on a piece of paper.  Fun fact of the day: Gorillas in zoos actually grow and live longer than those in the wild because of their diets and life.  Who would've thought! 

We were gone until nearly 6:30pm but it was so fun!  I highly recommend you check out the Zoo if you're ever in the area!  It's fascinating... and free!!!! :)  Tootles!

9 Years Later

September 11, 2010

September 10, 2010: The lights beam high up in the air as a tribute and also a look ahead in the future when the new towers will be built.

On this day, I hope we all stop to remember the more than 2,000 victims of September 11th, 2001.  The victims murdered in the Twin Towers and on planes, firefighters who died in the line of duty and those whose lives were taken at the Pentagon.  I remember where I was the morning of 9/11.. do you??  I was sitting in my high school classroom when suddenly we all turned on the TV and watched the events unfold. 

Nine years later, my hearts go out to those families who have lost a husband, wife, sibling, friend... May they know the memory of whom they lost remains alive in all our hearts.  After watching a full hour of The Timeline of Terror on Fox News last night, I can hear survivors describe that day, as well as reporters on the scene as the planes hit, and the mighty towers fell to the ground.

May we never have to go through a tragedy on that scale again.  9.11.01~Never Forget.


September 10, 2010

"A couple turns of EVOO around the pan.. while that heats up, give the pasta alittle guhge... Oh, and let me get my mapine and grab the bread out of the oven before I burn it." 

I love Rachael Ray.  I have been watching her shows for years.. and it feels like I've watched her all my life.  I loved the Food Network before 30 Minute Meals debuted and now I just can't get enough.  Every morning, I watch the Rachael Ray Show --even though they're reruns right now-- which is okay because I haven't watched it in forever with my previous job schedule so I haven't seen any of them yet!! 

Rachael is so funny, down-to-earth and she simplifies recipes and directions for anyone to understand.  She makes cooking FUN... and I love to cook.  Now that I have a better apartment and not much to do, I really want to get into cooking different meals more often.  Trying a recipe with the unusual ingredients and of course the oldies, but remade goodies. 

She might be a huge star with her own shows and cooking acessories line -- but she is just a normal person who not only loves cooking, but sees how cooking can change the world and others around you.  It might sound ridiculous, but I saw this happen on her show this morning.  It was a segment on "Room 325":  the story of a teacher in an inner city high school in Philadelphia.  How she gives her students tough love, advice, and cooking classes to become better people and know there is a better life out there than what many see in that tough area.  After watching their story and wiping the tears, I feel so inspired to get into a job I LOVE, but more importantly, help others as much as I can.  I certainly cannot cook like Rachael Ray-- but I have dreams and one of those is to be on TV doing something I love. 

When I saw her surprise the students before they saw their renovated kitchen, they were so shocked and excited that Rachael Ray took the time to think of them, help them and visit them in person!  I want to make a difference in people's lives like that.  Maybe not on that grand of a scale, but I want people to know there are some out there who do care about others.  This show touched me so much.

Rachael has established a company called Yum-O... helping kids across the country eat more nutritious, healthy meals.... and parents get their kids involved in the kitchen to make meals and memories. If I had money, I would totally help out.  I just think it's wonderful what she's doing in AND out of the kitchen.  I look up to her so much and want to some day be like her.  Wow-- I sound like an 18 year-old.  Haha.

I'm not sure where to go, what exactly I want to do and how to do it.  Now the million dollar question is: How do I get started?!  Your guess is as good as mine.  I really have no clue how to get this plan in motion.  But I do know I want to do something... whether it's on the side or as a fulltime job.  Any ideas my faithful followers??  I'd love to hear!!

"This very well could be what's for dinner tonight!  We'll see ya when we see ya." ~R.R.

Time Will Tell

September 9, 2010

Yesterday morning, I had a job interview at WBFF FOX45 in Baltimore.  I was up at 6am, ready by 7, and out the door because traffic sucks and I'd rather be early than late (not just to interviews.  That's just how I am.)  So I am driving there, getting lost, trying not to freak out.. so I call Matt who looks online and directs me to the station.  I find it utterly STUPID that I have to go through downtown Baltimore to get on I83, exit after a couple miles, go a few streets and I'm there.  Apparently there's NO way around the city to get to BFF.  I might have cut several drivers off in the city so I didn't miss my (sudden) turns.  Hey- I wasn't risking being late! 

So I get there half an hour early, look through my notes/writing samples/resume/questions and go inside 10 minutes early.  I had to fill out a lengthy application: yes I'll take a physical and drug test -- no problem there.  Here are my employers, salary, social security #, blah blah -- everything short of how often I shower. 

The news director comes and gets me, shows me the studio and control room which are amazing.  They were the first station to go HD 2 YEARS ago!  That is pretty amazing.  Anyway- we chat in his office, I give my resume and show DVDs we chat more and I ask him questions (Dad you'll be happy to know that ;)

Afterward, I met the EP and another morning show producer.  All were very nice and we all talked for a while.  I got the feeling that they really really cared about finding the perfect person for the morning show producer position -- which is not what I felt at FOX5.  There I was given a tour, writing test then "Bye, We'll call you by the end of the week." (Which was a week ago)  The position at BFF is morning show producer of the 6 & 8am shows.  It's exactly what I did at FOX43 to a T.  Only Baltimore's morning show is getting huuuge ratings.  I left with a good feeling.. like I efficiently relayed my goals and what I've learned as a Produce.  The news director said there are more people to interview, but that'd he know toward the end of next week.

I keep trying to not think about it.. because even though I thought it went well, I could very well not be their ideal candidate.  I'd be okay with that, but it's just hard to wait.  And the schedule is 2:30am-11:30am... a schedule slightly better than my previous one.. but it is still SO hard and takes a toll on you.  I don't know if I can go back to that again.  At the same time, I need a job.  Do I really have room to be picky???  I just don't know anything, and I hate the feeling.  I would love to hear back from the government jobs I applied to and have one of those for many reasons.

I guess time will tell, and the wait is still on.....  In the meantime, I'll try not to get so upset.

I better go tend to my lunch before it boils over.  Tootles!

A Wonderful Labor Day Weekend

September 7, 2010

Labor Day is here and gone -- and it was a good one!!  Matt and I were at his Parent's cabin about 3 hours away from Silver Spring.. in the middle of nowhere.  Here are some pictures:

This is only the side of the cabin, driving up the driveway.  There's an awesome porch that runs the length of the whole cabin.

This is looking down into the living/dining room area on the first floor.  So many big windows to enjoy the view!

A better picture of the living room area.

This is the Catawissa... a large river that runs by the cabin. So beautiful!

His friend Volski ended up coming after work Saturday night, too.  We caught up then went to bed late.. and Sunday we went for a walk, watched the Phillies and relaxed.  Volski left around dinner time.. so Matt and I took another walk, cooked dinner and enjoyed the quiet.  Monday held the same activities, too.  It might not sound like much, but it is SO peaceful and fun to be up there-- away from people, phones turned off and savoring the beautiful world we live in.  I love it up there!  Can't wait to experience it in the winter.. which isn't too far away (yikes!)

Today I'm catching up on laundry, cleaning and preparing for my interview tomorrow morning.  It's at WBFF in Baltimore!  We'll see how it goes :)

Until then, have a wonderful day everyone!!!!

Happy Labor Day Weekend!

September 4, 2010

Hola!  What a start to the long Labor Day weekend it's been!!  Matt and I are off to his cabin in a few-- but I didn't want my faithful followers to think I forgot to blog today :) So here's a recap of what's happening in my life since I last wrote:
~ Never heard anything from FOX5.. however I have another interview at a Baltimore TV station this Wednesday!!! :)  I'll write details at a later date.
~ Last night, Matt and I got some groceries, made dinner, and watched Leap Year (good movie)
~ Today was my last day at Express.  I should be there now (I was supposed to work 1-6) however I walked in and the manager said I wasn't needed so I could go home.  Schweeeeet!  So half an hour later, I was home and now Matt and I are getting stuff ready to head off to no-man's-land filled with nothing but forrest animals, babbling brooks, trees... all wonderful gifts God and mother nature have given us!!! :)  Better run... we're leaving soon and I'm sitting here typing away while Matt packs.  Hehe.

P.S.~ there is (fortunately) no cell reception at the cabin, so no talking on the phone for me... and you'll all have to find something else fun to look at on facebook, since I can't utilize the mobile uploads feature for a couple days.  ;)  Off to become 1 with nature... and scarf down lunch real quick. Ciao! xoxo

Still Waiting...

September 3, 2010

It's Friday!!!!  And, honestly, I'm not doing much today.  I had to call State Farm to get my insurance switched to Maryland, I cleaned, put clothes away and just got done eating lunch.  Now, I'm watching tv and trying not to think about my phone ringing.  As the days pass on- I feel more worried about getting the job at FOX5.  I think if they wanted me, they would've called by now.. but at the same time the news director said she'd be in touch this week.  The week isn't over yet.  I just REALLY need and want this job.  Anyone out there know what I'm going through?  Who am I kidding.. of course tons of people know what I'm feeling: helpless, worried, scared, annoyed.  The list could go on.  I'm just trying not to worry -- yet preparing myself for the worst.  Is that bad??  The good thing is if I don't get it - I have many other jobs I've applied to that I could get.  (Hopefully)  I guess today... I'm just losing hope and patience too.  But it's still early -- so there's still time for good news, right?

I'm Blessed

September 2, 2010

You never know what could happen each day.  When you leave the comfort of you apartment or home, when you're at work, on vacation... the possibilities are endless.  I don't ever worry about that kind of stuff which could be good and bad.  Living in Silver Spring now is different in every way.  Sure there's still murders and other horrible things going on -- but I never thought about how close we are to DC.  The Presidents.. residence, the mecca for politics and the hustle and bustle of everyone getting to and from work. 

Yesterday, I was working at Express and was on my 15 minute break when I got a text message and voicemails from Matt and my Aunt.  Matt was on his way home from work in DC when he said he'd be way late because of a hostage situation at the Discovery Channel.  And my Aunt mentioned it in her message, asking if we lived near there.  Well, we DO live near there.  I was at work and secretly freaking out.... then finding myself wishing I was infront of a TV to watch the situation unfold.  Matt and I talked about it so I knew he was okay.. he was just waiting for a bus to get home.  All of the chaos that happened because 1 man wanted Discovery to save the animals.  It really is sad he had to lose his life over it, but every action has consequences. 

Yesterday made me stop and think about where we're living and how any place in the US sees the kind of things that have happened in the short time I've been here.  I'm so thankful for everyone in my life and incidents like yesterday make me even more conscious of it.  In the words of my Grandpa when anyone asks how he's doing -- he always replies, "I'm blessed."  I definitely know the feeling! :)

The Great Wait...

August 31, 2010

Hey all and happy Tuesday.  Just got back from the grocery store and just had lunch...now it's time to watch my favorite afternoon TV shows -- even though they're all reruns.  Now, allow me to recap yesterday.

My mind is still reeling about my interview.  The day was perfect in every way: it was beautiful out, I drove into DC and found FOX5 easily, drove around for a parking spot but gave up so used a parking garage instead which happened to be nearby.  I left the parking garage and started walking, not sure where I was going, but a nice man showed me the way.  (I didn't think to look for the HUGE TV tower in the air.)  Anyway, I ended up getting there slightly early (good thing I left at 11:30am!) so I sat outside for a bit, then went in and told the nice security man who I was.  After waiting for the Assistant News Director, she showed me the studio, control room and newsroom where I then took a half hour writing test.  I had to arrange 5 AP wire stories in the order I'd put them in a show, then write them.  It didn't take me the full time, but I utilized the full 30 minutes to re-read and check over my work.  I was 100% ready to talk about my writing with her and explain why I put the stories in the order I did -- but I didn't have that chance.  When I was done, I was usherd over to the EP's office and we talked while he walked me out of the building.  Around 2:15 I was back at the parking garage.. hungry & thirsty... but rushing to get out before I was over 2 hours so I only had to pay $5.  haha. 

I believe it went well, but it went SO fast!  I talked to the Assistant News Director for a while -- bonded over being Steelers fans -- and I told her about my old job and all I learned.  I wish we could've talked longer, gone over my writing samples, more about the position, but she seemed very busy.  She said she'd be in touch this week!  We'll see what happens!  If I don't get it, I'll be bummed sure, but it was great experience -- and that just means the big man upstairs has something better in store for me.  :)

"If you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there." ~Unknown

Bring It On

August 30, 2010

"Forget the sky; there is no limit." ~Unknown

I found this quote on Twitter last night, and loved it.  So simple, yet says so much!  And it's just what I needed to see gearing up for today: my job interview at FOX5 in DC.  It's almost 6:30am and I'm wide awake which I'm none too happy about but I just couldn't sleep -- and didn't get much shut eye.  I went to bed last night and my mind just whirled about today, and my previous days working at Express that just make me want to scream.  I'm very much looking forward to this interview since I last talked to the news director there the beginning of July about coming for a visit.  I guess she was pretty busy because I heard from her last week and immediately set up an interview date. 

I'm excited to see what it's like at a much bigger TV market and hope I wow them.  This could be the beginning of the next chapter in my TV career life and I say bring it on!!!!!  There is no limit to what I, or anyone, can do.  If you want to take a totally different career path, you can.  If you want to quit that job and move to a new state on blind faith you'll find a job, you can.  It all just may take some time and tons of patience (which I thought I was all out of until now).

I learned SO much while I was producing at FOX43 just short of 2 years, and I feel that I am the best candidate for the job they have in mind for me at FOX5.  I'm ready to take my skills to the next level to eventually get to my ultimate dream of being on-air.  I don't think it's far fetched... certainly won't happen anytime soon, but I'm okay with that.  And who knows, maybe down the road that dream will fade and I'll conjure up a new one.  You never know!  That I can be sure of. 

All I know now, at 6:30am on this Monday, is that I want this job.  Not only do I need it to pay the bills and survive but I WANT it.  I want to get back into TV as much as the hours suck and the stress level makes you crazy at times.  So bring on the writing test and interrogation today; I'm ready!  Let's hope and pray I knock their socks off.... and leave them saying 'We need her!'

Of course I'll let all my (2) followers how it goes.  Until then, forget the sky... there is no limit!!! :)

Do I Look 18??

August 27, 2010

We'll get to that in a second... but I'm exhausted!  My first day at Express was last night from 5-close.  I was warned, but little did I know that translated into 5-midnight.  I read more literature on customer assistance, selling jeans jeans JEANS, (same stuff different store) was quizzed like high school from the manager on the floor, given a fitting room key and began helping customers with clothes, fitting rooms and go-backs. 

The thing I LOVE about retail: people who mosey in at the last minute you're open and look around like the clock stops for them.  Ok not really.  But I was nice in helping the old couple find jeans for their daughter.  After they left we closed up.. and so began cleaning the entire store.  Folding perfect folds, sizing, hanging each item correctly, everything in it's right place, finger hanging and more.  I suddenly began to remember why I dislike retail!  The store is big, and there were 3 of us to get it done.  I was stuck on the massive wall of jeans - folding and cleaning up the mess that customers left behind.  Midnight finally rolled around, and though we wern't done but the manager called it quits.  Phew!  That was a new experience for me.  When I worked at Gap - I never closed because of my full-time job at Fox. 

The only good thing was the people I worked with.  Though EVERYONE thought I was 18, and couldn't believe me when I told them I'm 25.... the third oldest there!  Harry is really nice and fairly new, and Dotchy.  She and I have SO much in common the more we talked.  It was really nice to start making friends!  We're already planning a night out with the boys (though they don't know it yet :)

Sleepless Night

August 26, 2010

Here it is, 11:50am and I just rolled out of bed.  Don't yell at me Mom and Dad!!! The thing is, I couldn't sleep at all last night.  I was sleeping soundly until about 2am when my eyes opened and didn't want to shut.  Matt was up and left at 6, and by that time I was into watching my 2nd hour of FOX5 Morning News.  Alittle after, I turned on Fox & Friends, watched over an hour of that then FINALLY fell asleep.  What is my problem?? 

All in all I got about 5 hours before and after being awake.  The only thing I can think of that could be the culprit is today: my first day at Express.  I haven't heard from them about my schedule then BAM! Matt and I are watching TV last night and I get the call.  "We have some openings on the schedule this week..." Enter Miss - Nice - Alissa - Who - Can - NEVER - Say - No.  Quite frankly I'd much rather start next week... actually I'd rather not work there at all!  I told the manager I can work tonight and Saturday (goodbye weekend).  Now, I'm finding myself wishing I didn't answer, politely decline or avoid it alltogether.  But that's not me.  I was so mad last night after the conversation and I think that's why I couldn't sleep.  I'm finding myself absolutely DREADING working in retail again, let alone starting tonight.  I feel that I don't have it in me to do that anymore, and I don't want to go to another job I don't enjoy doing.  Help!  There is light at the end of the tunnel.  Yesterday, as I was cleaning I got a call from the news director at FOX5 in DC.  Her voicemail said she wants me to come visit and thinks she has a position for me.  So, I go in Monday afternoon which cannot come soon enough.  Now I don't know what to do!  Do I quit Express in hopes of getting this job... or stick with it until I know for sure I can quit - thus leading Express on?  I did tell the Express manager this is a temporary thing until I find a job in my field.  I'm just not sure what to do!  I guess I could be patient and see how Monday's interview goes.  Let's hope I knock their socks off! :)

Express Orientation

August 24, 2010

Phew! Is it Friday yet?! This week has already been craaazy and it's... let me check my calendar... Tuesday!!!! ahhh!! 

Today I hit up the mall again... not to shop, but to experience my Express orientation.  Which --turns out-- was NOT express.  It began at noon, and I was happy to see 2 others with me, so I wasn't alone!  We watched 5 VHS tapes about the new clothing line, helping customers, the backroom and MUCH more.  Brain overload = headache.  After that, Kevin showed us allll about the backroom and the store.  We met some fellow associates and talked more.  After filling out tons of paperwork, asking more questions.... almost 3 hours... I left.  Tired!  It was really the same stuff I went through before I worked at Gap but I guess a refresher was good.  Honestly, I'm not very excited about working retail again.  And Express isn't quiiiite my style... I felt much more comfortable at Gap.  But hey, the manager told us today we can become a 'fashion expert' and that piqued my interest... A LOT.  I LOVE fashion, clothes and always follow it.  It's more pay he said, and there's lots more to be expected of you but I'd really like to do that.  Who knows!  Maybe I'll like this job, the people, fashion so much I'll decide to move up within the company.  Anything is possible. 

So, I'm going to try to see this as a positive new venture in my life.  It'll be a challenge everyday, but bring it on!  I found this quote recently and I love it:

"...And life is what we make it.  Always has been, always will be." ~ Anna Mary Robertson.

Weekend Recap

August 23, 2010

I'm back! I haven't been near a computer until today -- so forgive me for not blogging :)  It was another great weekend... filled with fun and some unexpected events!

Friday, Matt came home from work early!  What a nice surprise for me!  So, we relaxed for a bit then got prettied up and went out for a great dinner at the Melting Pot.  I HIGHLY recommend this restaurant.  Great fondue, in a quiet romantic setting... oh and the food is delicious too!  Cheesy fondue for an appetizer, salad, meaty fondue dinner capped with a delicious chocolate fondue.  Heaven!!!  It was great to relax, eat, talk and explore the area a bit.  Afterwards, we anxiously awaited the new episode of Whale Wars on Discovery channel.  A highly recommended show.. the Sea Shepherds fight to stop Japanese from whaling.  It really makes you think, and gets you hooked (no pun intended).  (The episode was awesome,  I shall blog more about this later!)

This is me, dying to eat cheese fondue!! Mmmm

Saturday- after we woke up, we ate and relaxed (see a trend here??) then Matt wanted to head to the local Ford car dealership to see what he could get for his current Explorer.  (He's been hooked on a 2010 Explorer since we looked at them last week)  LONG story short, we headed over.... and 5 hours later came back with a 2010 Eddie Bauer Explorer!  Matt wheeled and dealed, wasn't sure, test drove 2... then decided to get it after the patient men threw in navigation for free!  It is a sharp car and Matt got a really good deal on it!

Matt's fully loaded 2010 Explorer Eddie Bauer Edition

After we drove off the lot with a new car, we headed home to Lancaster to see Matt's family and cats (and to surprise his parents lol)                                                                                                                         

Sunday, Matt, his mom and I went to the grocery store in the new car to get food for dinner.  Then, Matt and I picked up his friend Dom and went out to lunch.  Dom came back to Matt's house with us to hang out and eat a yummy dinner of hamburgers and corn on the cob!  It was delicious and really nice to spend time with friends and family.  Matt and I didn't get home to Silver Spring until almost 10:00 last night!! It was definitely another wonderful weekend.

Now for a Monday update:  want the good news or bad news first?  Good news is: I got a job!  Bad news is: it's in retail (AGAIN) and I have orientation tomorrow.  I'm about 50/50 on whether or not to be excited about this.  I went for an interview today at a much closer Express.  And while I didn't have to be asked the same questions again, I talked with the manager, told her my unemployment woes and that I need SOME type of job to get by.  What a coincidence!  She said she has an opening for someone who can work 30/40 hours a week/weekends (nooooo) and maybe looking to move up to manger eventually.  So after 5 minutes I accepted the job, after saying I am still looking in TV, and I go for orientation tomorrow at noon.  I'm happy to make some money, not happy because it's retail again.  SO tired of it and everything that I have to deal with.  I'm praying some kind of job in my field will come in the very near future, but for now I have no choice but to work at Express.  I like the store and can you say hellloooo discount! so those are positives.  We'll see how this goes!

Now I must go work on more laundry! Ciao!

Friday Fun

August 20, 2010

Happy Friiiiidayyyyy! Another week coming to a close, and I say bring on the weekend!!! This week has been exhausting for me.. job searching, interview, cooking/baking, getting frustrated....

Last night, Matt and I made dinner -- ranch chicken and noodles (which was delicious.)  Then after dinner we left the comfort of our apartment... and ended up at the closest mall in Bethesda!  After feeling down about unemployment, a little retail therapy never hurt any girl :)  It was an interesting area.  I noticed the "malls" around here are not really in 1 building which I'm not used to. So we went in Target, then into the mall which surprisingly had good stores!  We got Yankee Candles for the apartment and I got a pair of jeans from American Eagle.  It was nice to just get out of the apartment and explore the area a bit.  Today - it's back to more job searching & hoping someone wants me!  I'm a good worker, I swear!!  :)  Oh- and I have another interview at a much closer Express on Monday.  Fingers crossed it goes well so I can have at least a part time job and make SOME money. 

Just a couple more hours today and Matt will be home.  Tonight.... we're going out for a lovely dinner at the Melting Pot in Columbia! And what good timing, too.. it's our 5 month anniversary :) I am such a lucky girl!What am I going to wear?!...

This is a picture of Matt and I at Rehoboth Beach a few weeks ago.  Love you Hunnie :-D

Sorry, But I Can't Hear You Over This Sun Chips Bag

August 19, 2010

Taking a break from job searching, I'm watching The Daily Connection show on NBC this fine afternoon.  And they did a story on the new --and loud-- Sun Chips bags... that's "eating away" at consumers. (pun intended)  This is funny, because I feel the same way!  Matt and I share a love of Sunchips, and when I grabbed the bag I nearly jumped out of my skin it's so loud.  You poke it with one finger you awake your whole apartment complex/family/etc.  I felt like I would get in trouble for the amount of noise it made.  It's supposed to be 100% compostible, environmentally friendly and therefore green.  It's pretty funny to hear what people said on this show about them, joining Facebook groups and there are even Youtube videos. 
Case in point:  Sunchips Crinkle Bag
The reporter on the show went into a NYC subway with a noise meter.  The subway train was about 80 decibals, while the Sunchips bag was over 90!  Crazy.  The maker of Sunchips said they are working on fixing the problem.  Meanwhile, I'm hungry.  I think I need some Sun Chips.......

Interview Day

August 18, 2010

Ahhh Wednesday. 

It's been raining here a lot overnight and into the day as well, and man that makes me want to watch movies all day!  Unfortunately, today I had a JOB INTERVIEW! :o Now, don't get TOO excited... it was only at Express in the Towson Town Center Mall -- which is HUGE.  This mall has no end, and needs 4 levels to hold all the stores.  Every store you can want!

My interview was at 3pm and my punctual self arrived at approximately 12:30pm.  Yep!  You read that right.. I was two and a half hours early.. which I kiiinda did on purpose :) I did some shopping along the way and just on one level (there's that getting lost thing again).  I hit my favorite stores (Banana Republic, Gap) and felt lost in Forever 21... (there's SO many clothes and I get so overwhelmed I never buy anything there).

Before my interview I walked out to take my bags to the car, came back in and took a seat next to a nice old lady on a bench near Express.  Turns out she was with her son (?) I'm assuming who was maybe 40s/50s.  The man said 'I couldn't help but see you're looking at the directory, is this your first time here?' So that struck up a conversation about my life, what brought me to Silver Spring, my unemployment and job interview.  They were such nice people and the little old lady, while enjoying ice cream, said she'd pray for me and the interview.  'There ARE nice people in the world' I thought.  She asked my name, said it was beautiful and that I'd have no problem getting a job.  Awww shucks.

My interview was short.  Short, sweet, good experience but I'm pretty sure I didn't get a job.  Mainly because Towson is 45+ minutes away for me and I told the Manager (Kristin) that I really need a full time position to drive that distance.  She nicely said for sales associates there is only part time.  I told her about myself, answered the usual retail job questions and in 10 minutes it was over.  She said if I found an Express closer to me to let her know and she'd be more than happy to call there and get me in.  Hey I'll take what I can get!  Time to do some research........

A Lunch Date!

August 17, 2010

Day #2 of blogging and I find myself excited to sit down at my computer and share some of my life!  What can I say, I'm a writer at heart!

Anyways, today I was up early (as I am everyday) and got a call from my college friend Matt to meet for lunch today.  He works and lives with his wife and kids in Virginia, and he was my "big brother" at Clarion... it's nice to be closer to him!  So I showered, got ready, found directions online (SO nervous to find my way/drive in the craziness of the area) and left!  It was only about half an hour trip to Virginia and it went by quick.  I found Matt's company pretty easily (phew)... so after touring the place he and I went to lunch at Olive Garden with 2 of this coworkers.  It was fun!!  We discussed work, life and some Clarion memories all over unlimited soup, salad and breadsticks! :) YUM.  It was a really nice time to meet new people, catch up with an old friend and eat good food!  It made me think as I drove back to Silver Spring how I need to get out more.  I just job search/apply all day stopping for lunch, dinner with Matt.. not really taking any time out to explore this new area I'm in.. maybe meet new people!  So what am I waiting for?!

Well, truth is, I'm scared.  Of many things: being in a completely unfamiliar (not to mention HUGE) area with no one I know and, quite frankly, I don't want to get lost.  LOL  As weird as that is, those who know me well know I have NO sense of direction even in daylight.  Just ask my college friend Matt about my fiasco trying to find the Kennedy Center in DC for the John Legend Concert (amazing, by the way).  Call me silly, lazy.. etc but it's true (as much as I hate to admit it). 

I need to step out of my comfort zone and find cool places (which is everywhere in this area), try new things, and not be afraid to get lost.  It would make for a good story, anyway, right?  Starting now, I'm turning over a new leaf.  I'm going to explore the area including DC ( :-0) to see what I can find.  Certainly not everyday, but there's SO much to see and do!  While I'm here, I better take advantage of it!!  I'll let ya know how it goes, don't worry.  I'm sure there will be many funny stories to tell!!

Flying By The Seat Of My Pants!

August 16, 2010

Hello All!
Welcome to my blog!  It's something I've been wanting to do for a while now -- and just couldn't get it out of my head.  I have many thoughts, new-found websites and gadgets, quotes I love, songs I discover, things I want to do, and much more.  This is a way to write it all down for my sake, and for others to see what I see/feel/want to say.  There's no set design to this blog: I might not blog daily (though now I have all the time in the world), I might blog more than once a day.  I just may share some profound thoughts, or some silly antics you all know and love.  Hopefully I won't waste your time reading it.... So, read on!
As most of you know (if you are Facebook friends with me, you prob do) I recently moved to Silver Spring Maryland.  Well, it's been about a month already.  I did something I never thought I'd do, and at probably the worst economic time: I quit my job as a TV Producer at FOX43 and moved to MD with my boyfriend, Matt.  Talk about shocking... for me and my family as well.  I had been doing it just shy of 2 years, and those I know well know what a horrible time it was for me.  I was tired (11:30p-8:30a schedule should be illegal) and tired of working at such a negative place where moral was low and those in charge didn't know how to run the place (in the shortest description possible). 
Anywho, Matt got a great job with the government in DC so he moved to MD shortly after -- and I moved down a few weeks later (after living at his parent's house in Lancaster for a bit).  Didja get all that??  It's crazy, complicated, yet I feel it's for the best.  That job was wearing me down day by day, hour by hour and it was time to get out!  My stubborn self wanted to make sure I had a job before leaving -but- I couldn't find anything in time so I'm flying by the seat of my pants and experiencing the uneasiness of unemployment.  Ahhh! Scarrry, yet exciting.  What will my next job be?  Where at?  Doing what?  Which brings me to what I've been thinking and wondering since I've been in a new place: WHAT do I want to do?  I ask myself that daily, and haven't been able to come up with an answer.  I wrote my likes down, and things I don't want in a job as well.  In a fairy-tale land, I could have that job... but this is the real world Alissa!  'Get yourself together' I tell myself... you can't have it all.  After working in TV, I do like it.  I like making decisions (shocking, I know) being in charge of a newscast, writing and seeing my work come to life.  However, the hours suck and more than likely I won't have weekends off.  Do I suffer through that, and more, to work towards a career I can't get out of my head?  Or do I not give up finding that "dream job"?  Maybe on this journey.... I will answer my own question!

P.S.~ I promise my blogs will not all be like this :)